Hmm
The postscript to the conversation with the complicated guy:He told me to stop being concerned about what is going on.
Like that will happen
Also, I have realized that my presence on this campus is going to require major chizzuk.
I'm young, relatively attractive...and in a place where the underrad orthodox population is nil, and the general jewish population is small.
I'm eventually going to be stuck in situations involving non-jews (i refuse to call them goying, it is perjorative) where there will be wierd sexual enegry that normally develops. And I can't allow that to either a) sweept either person off thier feet or b) get really involved with people like that.
But somehow it feels unavoidable.
Despite the fact that this is a campus where no one dates, too much work and all.
So i feel caught in a crossfire of having people at home feeling th at I need to date, and here where there are no jews and no possibilty of dating. I'm not even sure if I want to date, I feel like I have too much growing up to do.
posted by In the Lee of the Wind @ 11:09 AM
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